October 2010
16 posts
sometimes...
we just get in our own way.
i feel a lot like i’m a child learning how to interact with the world all over again.
and the realizations that i have are ones that everyone else figured out as kids
i dont know how i got this far without learning them
was i always this way, and just never had it become a problem until now?
realization of the day: being a spoil sport/a poor loser
you start...
life changes...
even when you don’t want it to
it changes all the time
the only thing that stays the same is that time equals change
then why can’t i accept this?
“What a million filaments.
The peanut-crunching crowd
Shoves in to see
...”
– Lady Lazarus, Sylvia Plath (currently writing a paper on this poem and these lines just stick with me)
update on life
today is mad struggles. Still coughing up a lung, and very little sleep, i’m finishing papers and praying that listening to Modern Guilt with get me through the 8 hours of class i have ahead of me. then right after my last class i’m home for a bit.
feeling stressed, a bit over-whelmed
hoping home will help and not hurt…
-wish me luck-
